Off the cuff, all bs aside

Have we met? Most likely not. Should we meet? Probably. This post is a result from... well. I have a lot of reasons but I'll narrow it down to two. Forewarning: I'm a horrible writer, I find it somewhat agonizing as I over-think it. I think in circles, therefore, I tend to write in circles. I know what I want to say but, have a hard time gathering my jumbled thoughts and putting it out there in a way that is comprehensible to all. I think in circles. Truly. Back on topic ((I do that a lot too, stray from topic as I feel a back-story or detail might be relevant...)) oh.... and I use those dots a lot. From what I understand those..... these... are to articulate a pause. I pause while speaking almost as much as I use these....

Topic - on it! I've been working on my about me page. I've written probably fifty different versions and the latest is generally worse than the last, at least within my own mind it is. The purpose of the about me page is let potential clients get a peek at the girl behind the lens. It's meant to be personable and inspirational.. but I'm awful at writing fluff. I have a friend, another photographer specializing in the fine art of the semi-nude provocative portraiture also known as boudoir.  My friend's name is Lynn, her site can be found here.  Lynn is an AMAZING writer in addition to being an AMAZING photographer.  Occasionally, Lynn lets me pick her brain.  ((If I had one wish, my wish would be the ability to swim about one's brain and gain knowledge, knowledge is power and power is... well.. powerful.  If that wish were a reality I can almost guarantee that you wouldn't be reading this off topic stuff about wishing and brains... you'd be reading my about me page that would be all kinds of inspirational and personable.))  

Sunday night I was preparing for a voice over that's to be added to my 'about me' promo video that is currently in production.  ((cat - bag - out - damn))  I'm a horrible public speaker ((cat - bag - out - damn)) ((circular, can you see?))  In one on one conversation I can give you the trillion reasons why I choose to specialize in intimate portraiture.  On-camera, in crowds, in public - stammer, stumble, umm... uh... it's in there, but it struggles to come out, struggles with fear and trepidation.  Lynn and the Skype to the rescue!  ((yes, I just called it 'the skype'.. I do that a lot, I'm also a bit silly))

Lynn asked me basic questions about my business and why I choose to specialize in boudoir portraiture.  Basic questions, yes, easy to answer....mmm... yeah.  NOTSOMUCH.  I tell ya, we women-folk, complicated beings we are.

I choose to specialize in the VERY intimate genre of boudoir because it allows me the freedom to pay attention to the details, I'm afforded the luxury of time to explore all of the angles and perspectives from which I shoot.  I find an insane amount of inspiration in the courage it takes my clients to come to me... because, let's be honest, it is no easy thing to contemplate, consider, decide and then schedule to bare most of ourselves to a perfect stranger.  I know this is hard... I've done it myself.  I do not take on this task lightly... I appreciate that my clients come to me in a very vulnerable state and trust that I will capture them well...

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To borrow a phrase from my friend Caroline (aka Sweet Louise) we women wear shit colored glasses when we look upon ourselves.

I think I shall talk about shit colored glasses tomorrow.... consider this a two-part post.  So stay tuned..... ((I have a session in the morning and cookies burning in the oven.  Ooops!))